It's been long, 

Struggling,

Living life this way, 

No longer functioning.

 

Sporadic moments of clarity,

Showing,

That life is not,

Dsyfunctioning.

 

Yet here am I, mid-way through,

Just treading,

Not living life,

Not progressing.

 

Am so frustrated, going crazy,

Nothing is happening,

Life is passing before me,

And inside, I am emotionally rotting.

 

Pill, therapy,

Talking,

Tried in vain, to get rid of,

The black stain, so engulfing.

 

Weights me down,

Sagging,

Motivation gone, 

This can't just be my story.

 

Am in a mess,

Crying,

Fighting the feeling,

Frequently.

 

Stuck in rut,

Squeezing,

Create a plan, stick to it,

Flexbily.

 

I've got a strong heart,

Pulsating,

My problems haven't broken me,

Gone on over 20 years you see.

 

Express myself via

Writing,

Get the shit out of my head,

Got to be.