Decisions
Dear Betrayer,
Sometimes I sit around and think
About how everyone has a focus
One day I could just fly away
And my loved ones wouldn’t even notice
Or maybe they would start to see
I was slowly falling apart inside
At this point it doesn’t matter
I’m seen as the biggest let down alive
I don’t mean to disappoint you
I didn’t disobey you out of spite
I made the decisions I made
‘Cause I just want him to be in my life
But I can’t take anything back
I can’t go back in time to fix it all
I’m walking up a flight of stairs
I reach the edge to contemplate the fall
The only thing preventing me
Is sin’s consequence of eternal flame
I’m tired of living on the ground
Where all of my thoughts are controlled and tamed
I can’t even look you in your eyes
Now that the past is brought back into play
You pushed me to my breaking point
But you still need me and ask me to stay
You protect him with excuses
As if I’m always the one in the wrong
Now I know I’m somewhere I don’t belong
It’s heartbreaking watching as you
Side with a man who loves you ten times less
Yet you’re blind to the facts of this
And cause me to be filled with pain and stress
Love,
The Betrayed