Death Wish
Location
I want to hear the ring of the gunshot
just before I leave my physical self
and drift off to wherever I belong.
I want to feel the blood drain from my face
and out my slit veins;
watch it seep into the carpet,
turning it an awe inspiring shade of crimson.
I want to feel the pills work their magic
as I slowly lose consciousness.
I want to jump off the chair
and hear the bones of my neck
snap blissfully into the darkness.
I want to feel the rush of air and gravity
and feel my body dissolve into the pavement
upon impact.
I want to see the amazing framework of the freight train
just before it nullifies my existence.
I want to feel the life
get pulled from
this useless and painful world.