Death is crazy.

Death is crazy. One day you are at you first day of junior high. A new school, a new year. No familiar faces, but familiar memories now. 

 

Death is crazy. One day you find your people, and find yourself sharing all your deepest, darkest secrets. Just crazy kids then, but familiar memories now.

 

Death is crazy. One day you find yourself growing up, and you see your people growing up beside you. Going through puberty then, but familiar now. 

 

Death is crazy. One day your friends will teach you things you never knew being the only girl in your family. Stupid lessons then, but familiar memories now. 

 

Death is crazy. One day you will watch your first scary movie and remember hiding behind a blanket and being called a baby. A joke then, but familiar memories now. 

 

Death is crazy. One day you will move on to high school. A new school, a new year, and new friends to make. Crazy nerves then, but familiar memories now. 

 

Death is crazy. One day you will try out for the swim team, and make a decision that changed your life forever. Just a decision then, but a familiar memory now. 

 

Death is crazy. One day you will have your first swim meet with the people who have already become your family. Pure joy then, but familiar memories now. 

 

Death is crazy. One day you will find your new people and wonder how you ever lived without them. A family then, but familiar memories now. 

 

Death is crazy. One day you will be tasting your first sip of alcohol, and catch yourself getting dizzy. A rebellious act then, but a familiar memory now. 

 

Death is crazy. One day you will lose yourself, and your people are the ones who help to find you again. Your saviors back then, but familiar memories now.

 

Death is crazy. One day you will give your body to a boy that says he loves you. A nasty lie then, but familiar memories now. 

 

Death is crazy. One day you will change your life to revolve around God and forget about your people. A confused teenager then, but familiar memories now. 

 

Death is crazy. One day you will find your way back to you people again, and hope that nothing will ever change again. Happiness then, but familiar memories then. 

 

Death is crazy. One day you will find yourself peeing in the middle of the street and shouting YOLO. Unforgettable moments then, but familiar memories now. 

 

Death is crazy. One day you will be in the middle of a fight, two of your people and only one of you. Stupid drama then, but familiar memories now. 

 

Death is crazy. One day you will be with one person instead of the other, not knowing what is to come. All fine back then, but familiar memories now. 

 

Death is crazy. One day you are going into your first day of your senior year of high school. The beginning of the end then, but a familiar memory now. 

 

Death is crazy. One day you find out what happened on the school broadcasting system. It couldn’t possibly be true then, but a familiar memory now. 

 

Death is crazy. One day you will find yourself waking up without having the chance to say goodbye. A foggy week then, but a familiar memory now. 

 

Death is crazy. One day you will find yourself crumbling into a million pieces, telling people to let you break. Nothing but depression then, but a familiar memory now. 

 

Death is crazy. One day you will get our shit together for your people. An act of strength then, but only a familiar memory now. 

 

Death is crazy. One day you will see one of your people crumble the way you were and not know what to do. Too much pain then, but a familiar memory now. 

 

Death is crazy. One day you will start to find a way to put your people and yourself back together. Just a hero then, but a familiar memory now. 

 

Death is crazy. One day you will find yourself forgetting her laugh and her smile. So familiar then, but only a memory now. 

 

Death is crazy. One day you will try to remember her face, and pray to see her again soon. A dream then, but only a memory now. 

 

Death is crazy. One day you will move 3000 miles away from every person you have ever loved. A fresh start then, but only a memory now. 

 

Death is crazy. One day you will think that you have made the biggest mistake of your life. Crazy decisions then, but only a memory now. 

 

Death is crazy. One day you will look around and see who your people are, which ones have stayed and which ones have left. You will realize that as horrible and cruel as death is, it still brings life. An epiphany then, and reality now. 

 

Death is crazy. One day you will see that without the death, you would have never learned to truly live. You will understand what it truly means to Smile For Jenn. A change in heart then, but reality now.  

 

Death is crazy. One day you will think about life before and even though you miss her more than words describe, you will find yourself thanking her for opening your mind to the world. One day one of your people will be gone, but she will still always be there, the dime that she is. Life sucked then, but reality is good now. 

This poem is about: 
Me
My family
My community

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