Dear You--Suicide Awareness Slam

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35150
United States
33° 10' 23.2644" N, 86° 15' 5.8572" W
35150
United States
33° 10' 23.2644" N, 86° 15' 5.8572" W
Dear you,
It's the 20th. I'm writing cuz I want to
Remember during practice? That time you hit me with a chair.
When Ray was in a bad mood
We laughed and you pulled my hair
Thats when you became my best friend
It was great ever since then
Julez said you were sexy
Jill said you were hot
You wore yellow when you met me
Back then I said "he's not"
I didn't mean it--not a second
Though ur hair is long and blonde
Your eyes are something special
They're like bathing in pond
But listen, you, I'm sorry
I know we've grown apart 
You're acting kinda distant
I love you with all my heart
Dear you,
It's the 24th I'm leaving 
Im going with the jazz group
Packed my music and head for disney!
I'm with Eileen I'll have her text you
And I know that you love coasters 
I'll make sure to ride them all
Just saying I love you mostester
Sorry lately I haven't called
Remember when you had 9 pancakes?
And our moose game and our "gang"?
You loved the food my mom made
And the park where we used to hang
I miss our talks at Fro-Yo
But you've been drinking and smoking pot
It wasn't always a problem
But now its just a lot
I guess thats why I haven't called you
I will when I get back
Momma nichols will make more pancakes
And you'll love every stack
Dear you,
It's the 26th and I'm 15 in 3 days
Disney really sucks man
It's getting harder every day
No one here will talk to me
Eileen ignores me too
I'm not good enough for all of them
I haven't said it but I miss you
This has nothing to do with singing
It has to do with friends and clicks
I'm that stupid awkward puzzle piece
The one that just wont fit
But remember your birthday?
We saw the shark movie and we cried 
I was scared and scarred from that movie
At least it was a good time
JJs impression- you laughed until you peed
Oh you always hated Megan
Thats why it was so funny!
Dear you,
It's the 27th and I'm sorry.
It's been hard but now I'm done.
I'm giving up please dont be angry
At least my last days were fun
You're my llama lover you know that?
You were the best--I've loved you for so long
Dont cry, okay, Im happy 
The pain is almost gone
My birthday is now my death day.
29th I'm good as dead
15yrs is long enough 
To fight with monsters in my head
But remember on the school trip?
Savannah failed at what I'll succeed?
You talked her out of it
But, you...you cant do that for me
I know you're high and drunk and dont care
And you've been that way a lot lately
You're not you in your short hair
You're not the one who used beat me
You were like my little brother 
Always beating each other up
And I know you love my mother
So keep her company when I'm done 
Dear you,
It's the 28th and I found out...
I didn't see it coming 
Everyone's talking bout you now
Oh, Mark, oh mark how could you?
My llama lover my friend?
How could you make me feel bad?
Bout my choices to choose death?
I'm a hypocrite I know that.
But quite frankly so are you.
Standing still on the train tracks...
Now what am I supposed to do....
I wish I could join you
On the clouds up with God
I know you didnt believe in him
But I do...I do a lot
I'll just take this as a sign
From you and from Him 
Like you sang "we're not broken just bent" 
You were right. Its true. Now for you I'm gonna live.
But...do you remember when it was worth it?
The tears, the pain, the laughs, the stains, from dirt, from pancakes, from Fro-Yo and all those bruises too 
I'll cherish the damage in my head I got...cause I got it just from you.
I'll love the train when it rides by
And the P!nk song on the radio 
I'll smile and wave hello, not good bye
This is all just a phase, you know?
At least i got an angel. 
And a funny blonde one at that.
I kept your yellow shirt, Mark.
Eileen kept your hat.
I'll eat pancakes and I'll think of you
The 9 of then you ate
For Shannon's surprise birthday party
You still had room for cake
I didn't know you struggled Mark
You hid it pretty well
You laughed and smiled and joked mark
I couldn't even tell...
So rest in peace my llama lover
This poems just for you
Big shout out to the fighters!
I'm a fighter too
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Comments

Angelwith1wing

God bless you through this troubling time. Prayers go out to all those who lost someone to suicide. May peace come soon to you and all hurt loved ones in Jesus name. Amen. God bless you and keep writing on my friend.

maryfaith88

Amen God bless you. I truly appreciate this. My friend passed away about a year ago, I was reminiscing when i wrote this. Have a blessed day :)

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