Dear Mommy,

I made new friends at lunch today. I shared all of my snacks with them.

 

Dear Mommy,

Another girl took my seat at lunch. My friends invited her.

I ate lunch in the bathroom today.

 

Dear Mommy,

I've been volunteering in the library during lunch.

The librarian said he appreciates the help.

He hasn't asked if I've eaten yet.

 

Dear Mommy,

We moved again.

I start eighth grade on Tuesday.

 

Dear Mommy,

I made new friends in gym class.

We played ninja.

I won.

 

Dear Mommy,

There's a girl that I like in school.

...Is that okay?

 

Dear Mommy,

Math is hard.

The girl that I liked told me about her crush on a guy.

 

Dear Mommy,

I don't like real people anymore.

They don't care about anything but themselves.

 

 

Dear Mommy,

I tried to kill myself.

 

 

Dear Mommy,

My therapist has a bird.

I don’t think this is working.

She has good tea in her office though.

 

Dear Mommy,

My dad is sick, but Mom says he's getting better.

I did my homework in his hospital room.

 

Dear Mommy,

I made friends with my ninth grade science teacher.

I organized her room and labeled everything.

She left too.

 

Dear Mommy,

I made new friends and my dad is okay.

He came to my concert the other night for the first time.

 

Dear Mommy,

I hope you've been well. I haven't seen you in a while.

I've been doing okay, or at least I like to think I am.

 

Dear Mommy,

I'm almost an adult now and I haven't seen you in seventeen years.

I wonder about you sometimes.

I've learned a language just to be able to speak with you one day,

But I don’t know if you’d want to.

Do you ever miss me?

I've tried to make you proud,

but I know you'll never know.

 

Dear Mommy,

A lot of things are unclear.

I've made lots of friends along the way,

but only the imaginary ones stayed.

A boy I met says he is in love with me,

but he's always too busy to prove it.

I've been accepted to my college of choice,

but the pressure of having to know what I want to do is suffocating.

I have a GPA of 3.9 in school,

but it's not good enough for anyone.

They say I just need to apply myself,

but that's difficult when you're disappointed that you woke up.

Mommy, what am I supposed to do?

 

-Your little girl