Before we have met

i didn't know what feelings were

what the outside world was

or what my name is

i was alone in the dark 

waiting for something to come up

 

you came into my life 

and you changed me from who i was  back then

I thank you for opening up my eyes

yet so far my eyes througth out this phase haven't been open 

due to society's standards

It has caused me to change as well

 

Caused me to become a different human being

caused me to not be with you anymore

yet after the trouble you went through before you met me

caused me to react in a mix of emotions which i can't explain

you already explained them all in just one word

"SELFISH"

 

that word pierced through my heart causing me to cry 

Cry and think why am i even in your life

Yet you seem to expect me to cry cause your thickskinned

You keep calling me "YOU SELFISH LITTLE GIRL"

every single time i would act upon certain things to have that saying

 

The first time i've heard it, it didn't bother me

I didn't have any emotions

as the day turned into months, then years

It began to affect me

Causing me to cry

 

I deserve it

after how i have acted

i don't deserve your kindness

i don't deserve anything at all

but to only be in  misery 

 

- from your selfish little girl