Dear Acceptance,

In a world filled with first impressions and high standards here I stand waiting to find my acceptance...I often sacrifice what is most important to me because all I want is your acceptance...What secrets lie beneath my outer appearance, beyond my happy smile, beyond the life I live, beyond the lies I tell you and hope for your acceptance...Your image of me won't be tainted because you see me for who you want me to be nothing more or less...You intend to mold me into everything you were not in hopes that this is what's best for me...your determination to succeed in living vicariously through me or to envy all that I am and belittle me has me unfortunately seeking for your acceptance...opinions come and go and who I am to you may never change but because you mean so much to me I am always seeking your acceptance...to those who I don't know but crave their understanding…why must your unknown and/or lack of presence have such a strong hold on me...Why must I hide what makes me ME to fit the mold of society's strict standards of life that desire to smother and strangle me into a life or better yet death where I sleep in a coffin of regrets and sorrow because I am not who I intend to be but I am a reflection of you and your expectations of me...I can not be all you want me to be if I have yet to become or be comfortable in who I am and all that I want, need and MUST be...I often question why your opinion matters and why acceptance is my mechanism to cope with the fact that I am different and desire to do things differently...why do I struggle with this why must I crumble at the very thought that things may not be the exact way I want them to be but I am exactly where I need to be and I am on my way to GREAT things...No I don't have all the answers so when you ask and I can't answer just know you will receive an answer in due time and if you don't that is ok as well because there is more to life than seeking your acceptance and gaining your approval...I don't need your acceptance just give me your Love, encouragement, and support...Only then can this world of 1st impressions, high standards, and false desires be at peace!