As the days pass,
each one harder than the last,
Not a single day passes,
in which my mind relaxes,
You're running through it all day,
my throat still clenches,
before every word I say.
I wish I would have known before,
that you would influence my life in such a way.
With all the sleep I've begun to lack,
and all the things I wish I could take back,
my mind has begun to deteriorate,
I wish I could start over with a clean slate.
I know you're here,
but it's not the same,
I wish I could hold you near,
even though I know I'm not to blame,
the feelings still fill my mind with fear.
The warm tears upon my cheeks,
my makeup still smears,
over the passing weeks.
I think of the future,
and think of what could be,
I think of the past,
and everything you've done for me.
No matter what,
my heart still aches,
my hand still shakes,
and the tears still flow.