DISCLAIMER: This is my work and I have posted this poem as a video on Youtube and a few other websites. For the purpose of posting this here, I did some minor editing. 

Dear Father,

You, you have hurt me beyond what you can understand.

You can’t see this, but you have broken me.

I can hold a grudge, be bitter and

Never let go of the fact that you abandoned me,

But tonight will be different.

I’m freeing myself

from the pain that you have inflicted on me.

I can’t believe that you ran away like that,

As if you had no responsibilities,

Then again, you never felt obligated even when you were around.

I’ll forgive you.

When you found out that mom was pregnant for the second time,

You went crazy and threatened her,

Saying that she better kill the living, forming

Human inside of her

Just because you were a little scared.

If she didn’t, you would go off to Pakistan.

How could you want to kill your own flesh and blood

For your own selfish reasons?

Still, I’ll forgive you.

I helped you pack your bags

Because you said you would came back very soon.

You lied to me!

Still, I’ll forgive you.

You were gone for eight long, hard months.

Every single day I cried for hours.

No one could comfort me.

No one could calm me down.

I was destroyed!

I was barely six.

Someway, somehow I will find the strength to forgive you.

You broke my mother’s heart!

What kind of man does that to his wife?!

You did! My mother never deserved that.

I’ve seen her struggle as a single parent.

It’s a miracle that she is still standing.

She has forgiven you,

And I will forgive you too.

When you left is when I turned to food as a source of comfort,

And now you keep urging me to lose weight.

When the pounds come off it won’t be for you,

But for me.

I’ll forgive you.

I would sometimes doubt that you loved me.

You will never know how much that hurts.

It messes with your head

 when someone who’s supposed to love you, doesn’t.

Still, I’ll forgive you.

When you left, I was being bullied.

I began to believe what they said about me.

After all, you did leave me.

I’ll forgive you.

I thought that everything that you did was my fault,

Because when I was younger I didn’t believe that you were my father.

But the thing is at times you didn’t act like one.

But you got better.

But I was heartbroken!

It was easy to blame myself.

Still, I’ll forgive you.

Finally! You came back!

Why did you?

Did you run out of money?

Did you miss us?

I don’t know for sure.

I’ll forgive you.

You never apologized to mom, and I heard nothing.

We deserved a sincere apology!

To this day, we still haven’t heard one!

But in your own twisted way you fought for my forgiveness through your wallet.

Buying me things won’t make me love you, but I love you anyways.

I’ll forgive you.

Your actions have caused so many problems in my life.

I’ve you hadn’t abandoned me my life would be ten times better.

But it’s not like me to play the blame game.

Still I’ll forgive you.

Whenever you are around, I feel like I’m near a stranger.

I wish we were closer.

I need a father in my life.

Still, I’ll forgive you.

I hope we won’t stay divided. It breaks my heart.

I hope you realized what I just did.

I forgave you.