How I've longed for your embrace

To catch a glimpse of humanness upon your face.

To hug you, be vulnerable

To be a little girl. 

But you don't hold me...

When I see you, it's hard not to see those random fits of rage an fury

I know, it's out of love

That's how you were raised.

Stern and strong.

You're the head of the house, not a daddy.

I think I've tried to look for that love elsewhere 

but I could not find

But my father in heaven, he IS my peace of mind.

I know I haven't known you too long, No you weren't always there.

All those years accross the water, you told me you'd come home

You told me how much you care

11 years I waited.

I ran to you and hugged you. 

You were my daddy.

When we left the airport, you showered me.

With Material, trying to fill a void that was emotional.

And when the material ran out, there was nothing there.

It's like you're shy of me. Why ?

You were my daddy.

My arms are open, yet you pat me on the back. 

I just want my daddy back.