Tick tock tick tock
My mind races with crazy thoughts
As my mother sleeps dying on her death bed....
Tick tock,' tick tock 
I zone out into a world with no negative thoughts
Trying to count as high as I can before my mom passes on 
1 to 5 to 15 to 45....
After 45 my body grew still 
flashbacks of my Mom and I 
Gave me the chills 
Memories... Ohh lord the memory's 
I couldn't even tell you I remember doing those things 
Most of those I was either a kid or a freaking baby
I sat in silence like watching a movie
One would get done and the next one would begin
Their was so many.... lord there was so many 
My mom and I dancing in the den...
She wanted me to know how to dance for the 8th grade dance 
Me screaming Mommy!!! Mommy!! I lost my first tooth... 
Being greeted with tears and a hug and a kiss "baby I'm so proud of you"
It all ended with our last biggest memory...
Our dance at my wedding!! 
I could hear her say the words you better not embarrass me... 
As we started to dance to hers and dad's wedding song....
Soo I could remind her of the time when dad pushed her along...
Then came the second song
“I am your child” by Barry Manilow
I can still vaguely hear the words 
"Whatever I am

You taught me to be

I am your hope

I am your chance

I am your child”
We danced and danced
Tears rushed her face...

It was the Final dance that just hurt the worst

“Don’t Blink” by Kenny Chesney

My mom was getting tired her legs were getting shaky

The more the song went on she became weak

I noticed at the end she started singing to me

I started crying once my mom looked at me

One last time baby!

My heart was pounding, and pounding it wouldn’t stop

The last part she sang made want to run and cry

She said “son”

“You just might miss your babies growing like mine did
Turning into moms and dads next thing you know your "better half"
Of fifty years is there in bed
And you're praying God takes you instead
Trust me friend a hundred years goes faster than you think
So don't blink”

After the song

We stood in the middle like a pair of statues

Holding each other for as long as we needed to

A tear fell from her old beautiful face

As she held my hand, and Said “I love you”

Within an instant I was back to reality

Returning to the sound of EKG

She was gone…

I never even got another chance to say I love you

I had drifted off to a place that just made the pain worse

Why the lord did this to me I don’t know

But to take my mom without me knowing

When I was sitting there by her side waiting for her too go

That was really low!!

When I looked over I noticed something weird

My mom had opened her eyes and grabbed my hand

This couldn’t be real but when I leaned in forward

Tears had dried on the side of her cheeks

And I couldn’t help but notice she was smiling at me

It was miracle my mom was with me through all those memories

My heart, my heart how its bearing so much pain

But yet for her to be in that moment

Takes a lot of the mourning away

She got to go through her whole life with me

And I was zoned out  

So when we got done dancing

And my beautiful mother took my hand and said I love you

She was actually saying it to me in person not just in memories!!!

Whyyy!!! Either way I still wanted to say goodbye

Her passing on was really hard

But it’s the moments  that were spent

With my wonderful loving mother

That run through my mind every day I can’t get enough of

It’s funny how our lord works in mysterious ways

This was just weird and it blew my mind away

But ever since that day my faith has gotten stronger

So maybe one day when I’m dying

My daughter will see all the memories that were always cherished

So that way before I die

I’m with daughter watching every moment

And I’ll leave her the same way