I was in the process of looking thew scholarships that I can apply for and I noticed two so far that require you to submit some sort of pome. Its kinda interesting because I remember seeing these in the past and thinking about how there was no way I would consider them; I thought its was dumb.. or at least extremely dishonest of me to try and write something emotional when I didn't have anything to say.. but now, today when I looked at this I though, yeah, I could do that, I could say something profound, something that was honest to myself and fueled by emotion. Its interesting. 

 

It made me think about control. The little we have, or perhaps the lack of. 

 

How we can't control much, as a giant mass moving different directions all tethered together.

 

An ameba that has no purpose or goal, a fire with no intentions, pure and all consuming

 

A creature of evolution thats only goal is devolution, extinction

 

living in a state of mind where one confides in themselves that control is imposible is nothing more than feeding this fire, perhaps it is pure and all consuming but is it wrong to consume in a direction? 

 

Not everyone is without direction, some even promote the illusion that everything is under control, in some fantasies that control is theirs or at least a goal to make it so.

 

The interesting thing is, if everyone believed control was absolute it would be, for that moment at least. Keep in mind those without control of ones own mind may not have the willpower to form or maintain a belief. A belief, to me, is simply something that is realized as a direction possible and more thoughts formed around it. 

 

Back to control; I think it is wise to somewhat guid your failure to control. See yourself as falling from the sky, maybe the ground is an unknown distance or maybe you cant even see it but forming a path or idea might be better than not. We have the capacity to live so why not distinguish ourselves from that which can not. Pick a direction, it might seem like insanity and you might change every moment from start till the end but at least you wont expire with the only effect being one step closer to entropy.