Contemplation on Anxiety and Love
In the wake of my unwieldy predisposition to death,
the emergence of comforting sounds
penetrate the surging waves.
No, he is not of the divine,
nor does he pretend to be.
Instead, he speaks in the language
of eyes and ears,
so as not to cast booming shadows
on my fragile words.
He procures ropes from his pockets
and ties knots around our shoulders
when I can no longer stand on my own terms.
He places his hands on the
crevices of my body,
so thoughtfully,
and sings songs of our love to help me feel safe
from the obscure,
Dreadful Nights.
As I wither away
amidst my own hollow trunk,
forced upright in the new lecture room chairs
when my only desire is to shrink into nothing,
he speaks for the trees,
Always leaving an empty glass
on the table for my porous soul
to leak and be saved on our shelf for later,
Long after the day is over.
In my dismal fear
and cyclic thoughts and
shaking hands,
there is a billowing island in his eyes,
steadfast and eternal amid the ocean
that is my mind.
No, I do not have to question,
because I, and you, and love,
are unyielding in the thick of my never-ending,
forever apprehension.