Confessions of a Sinner

My thoughts are sinful.
I am sinful.
Yes I believe in god.
Does sin really have that much of a connection with god?
I am a sinner because I have developed a crush that I can't control and that has become lust. 
I am a sinner because I masterbate to alleviate the stress I experience in my everyday life.
I am a sinner because I curse but isn't vulgar linguistics used in the bible.
I think about the world in sectors and I really wonder whether the bible is what god meant us to have as a handbook to life. 
I assume that god would want us to be happy. 
Happiness.
Stress. 
Fear.
Dignity.
These are all terms that god have made possible to exist on this earth. 
I experience all of them as I think about the person I love. 
I wish that they felt the same way about me and that is why I have stress. 
I fear that in life you would find out about how I feel and deny me my right to love you or my right to speak to you.
You would strip me of my dignity and all my happiness by telling the world and rejecting my every emotion. 
I want you to love me and I'm so sorry that you don't but I just wish you could. 
I wish that loving a boy wasn't seen as wrong because if it wasn't you could see me as a unit to make you better and not as a unit of destruction in your life.
You would see me as husband.
Your husband, 
and not continue to think of me as just a boy who fell in love with you.
I want to be happy with you because nothing would make me more jubilant than to be able to be with you.
Nothing would make me happier then to sin with you since sin is possible with every step. 
I want to be the person that you make your first motions of love with.
I want you to see the beauty in my heart.
Because that would be my ticket to heaven if my sins are too great to get me a ticket in. 
Your heart is 
My Utopia
My Elysium
My New Home
Because heaven is where my heart lies.
You would make love to me as smooth and as ferocious as a tidal wave impacting a coastal state or land mass.
You would love me. 
We would make it in to heaven.   
 
-Divine Life Williams
 
This poem is about: 
My community
My country
Our world

Comments

Additional Resources

Get AI Feedback on your poem

Interested in feedback on your poem? Try our AI Feedback tool.
 

 

If You Need Support

If you ever need help or support, we trust CrisisTextline.org for people dealing with depression. Text HOME to 741741