Confessions

I put on this amazing façade
how could they see though
From my point of view
I'll show you
I made it through all the pain until age 8
When I realized how much it hurts to feel hate
From a sibling you love and I've done all I can
After years of bullying and abuse I still stand
Not because I have the will to fight
Just because I can't give up on life
Age 12 I had my first boyfriend and a great first kiss
Then things got sour and he got dismissed
Only to find out she was flirting with him a few weeks after our break up
That meant I had no chance to get with him or make up
So I left it alone and moved on
By age 14 it all donned
On me that what she did wasn't right
I confronted her she lied and continued to fight
And argue with me even though she was wrong
Then I realized it wasn't her fault it was mine all along
Age 16 after seeing her go after every guy I liked
I eventually gave up on that fight
She could get any guy I wanted
She made all my memories haunted
Him "the love of my life" she took him from me it hurt so much I cried
Even with all the evidence in front of her she still lied
It hurt that he flirted back and she let him leaving me an empty shell that felt nothing but pain
She could never understand how much she hurt me I got into isolation with the same thought in my head "what did I do that was so wrong" just sitting in the rain
One day I was like enough of the pain and suffering
I have to do something to release my heart and mind just something
I made others happiness my ultimate goal and it opened my heart and eyes
To make others smile it jus boosted my pride
Though the pain may subside
These thought will always haunt me in the back of my mind
My parents were never there to see her hit me
Or the time she beat me and left me there to bleed
They don't know and the may never know
Bring up those memories I don't want the tears to show
Happiness makes everything better and it saved me
From shear suicide and leave my friends and family to grieve

This poem is about: 
Me
My family

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