The Cloud
Location
Sometimes you wonder
After a morning of waking up to the sunshine
Or a day spent with friends
Or an afternoon of light reading
Or an evening watching your favorite movies from childhood
That maybe
Just maybe
The dark cloud that’s been following you for months
Has finally disappeared
Has left you alone
Has set you free from its confines
Perhaps you can smile again
Maybe laugh
Maybe cry
Maybe say I Love You and mean it more than you ever have before
You think maybe
Just maybe
You’ve found your ray of sunlight
But then it hits you
Like a car out of nowhere
Like a slap in the face
Like an insult from a dear friend
That that cloud is never going away
That you are its pet
Its toy
Its game to play
That you will never be free
You will always be sad
And lonely
And scared
And anxious
You will never be truly happy
Because being truly happy was never meant for you
It was meant for someone else
Someone who loves themselves
Who loves others
Who loves books
Who can smile and laugh and sing and dance
That someone is not you
Nor will it ever be.