Cigarette Kisses

I love you in the simplest ways I can imagine

I fell for every shattered puzzle piece put back together like shards bloodied by broken dreams

And each cut that I got felt so right

I never even felt the pain

You're salt in the wound

Stinging with pain so addicting that it no longer hurts

You feel so right

I love dancing in your rain

In the storm that clouds your mind

That lightning of inspiration that flashes trough my darkness like daylight is mesmerizing

Your shouts of thunder, pouring from your mouth like fog

It's music to my ears that have been deaf to the sound of love for too long

I love how your rain is my music

Cooling me down in my inferno of emotions that threaten to burn my existence to ash

I love the sound that it makes with your voice its lyrics

Such a soothing lullaby, I have never heard before

Poetry is incomparable to the beauty of cluttered words that tumble from your lips

I fell in love with those lips

That soft opening to your opinions, your thoughts, your mind

It is my doorway into what makes you you; and it is perfect

I love its kisses that tumble as often as cluttered words

The next more beautiful than the previous

I'll never forget the feel of it on my skin

Like cigarettes burning lightly

Leaving impressions that scar my heart

The smoke just as sweet, just as unforgettable

You are just as unforgettable as choking on sweet air

You are my air and my poison

A drug that I cannot leave behind for any reason

And I fell so in love with the dreams and reality you palce in my hands, each equally heavy

Each equally painful 

I fell in love with the way reality hits me from your eyes,

Like tons of bricks raining through your storm

I fell in love with every part of you

Your voice, touch breath, song, storm, smoke, love

The way you kiss, smell, sound, taste

Your taste, it lingers in dreams

How you move and work and dream

How you watch me and how you don't

How you put my heart together just to twist it slowly

The way you touch me slowly

The way you move with me slowly

So slowly I feel pleasure in the place of pain

I don't even realize it hurts

The sweet sugar-coating an anesthesia that lets me forget my past and nightmares

Even my demons can no longer control me

Only my need for you

My want for you

I want so much with you

Mornings made of messy hair and lazy sunlight kissing us as we kiss each other

Or time in your arms, like a panic room, strong and protective, impenetrable, undetectable

Minutes watching you work, focus on something that won't matter in years to come

Holding hands with you, fingers interetwined like vines on old memories long forgotten

Tightly bound

I want the world with you, through eyes of rational and emotional,

My rock beneath my feet to steady my ship

Dancing in the rain with no one else to hear our laughter mix with the music of the sea

I want a lifetime of chances, dances, of cool rain on my skin

I want to swim with the Fish in the colors of the wind and leave behind

Every thing, every shard, every person and thought and word that ever broke my heart

Except the ones that came from you with a bow on top

I want to leave behind the world with you

Dance in your rain

Feel again

Cool the inferno that threatens my mind

There is light in the darkness you've gifted yourself

And if it is not mine, then there is nothing here for me

I fell in love with every single thing you gave me, whether it be good or bad

Water or poison

You are the drug that soothes my realities

Without you

Without you...

A world without you is nothing

This poem, my words cannot describe a world without you

It cannot exist, not even in imagination

Because if there is a world, even remotely, that exists without the pleasure of your presence

Then I cease to exist, disappear

Turn to ash and wash away with your rain

I fell for every drop of laughter that you let fall onto my skin and mind

I love you in the simplest way I can imagine.

This poem is about: 
Me

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