A Choice (An If I Stay Inspired Poem)
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Should I stay or should I go?
I have to make a choice
If I don’t, I’ll never know
Whether or not I’d enjoy my life
Whether or not I’d someday be a wife
But I don’t want to live without the people I love
Because I know it’ll be hard for me when push comes to shove
If I stay, I would have to live without my little brother, Teddy
I love him too much; I feel like I can’t, I don’t think I’m ready
If I stay, I would have to be without my mom and dad
This life already seems unbearable, just the thought of it makes me sad
But yet I don’t want to leave the people who care
Because I know they love me too so I wouldn’t dare
A life without me, a life without us
How can my best friend ever again trust?
Kim was always there for me, until the very end
Will she ever forgive me if I choose to ascend?
And how will my boyfriend do here on earth?
If I ever decide to go with my spiritual rebirth
Adam always supported me and stood by my side
It’s so hard for me to watch him cry
I don’t even want to think about
What he’ll do, if I died
And not to forget about my biggest passion
A cello between my legs and bow in my hands
Is my only fashion
If I leave, that passion I would have to let go
But I don’t know if I could handle that so
So what really happens when we die?
Do we stay here on earth or live up in the sky?
I’ve heard many stories but I don’t know what to believe
Because for all I know, those stories could easily deceive
If I wanted to stay, I wouldn’t even know how to wake up from this sleep
I guess for now I have nothing better to do than lifelessly weep
Now back to the question that is constantly ringing in my head
Should I go live my life or decide to be dead?
Was that nurse speaking the truth?
Is this decision really in my hands?
Hopefully, I still have my youth
But where does this life really stand?
Should I stay or should I go?
I have to make a choice
I just know in the end
Only one thing truly matters: my voice