The Capturer
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I'm sick of the past holding me captive
I hate all of the paranoia
I sit and think of the things I would say to you if I ever got the chance
I constantly practice all of the things I would get off of my chest
After all of these years I still get no apologies, no sorries, no begging for forgiveness
I'm a different person now
I'm stronger and smarter than before
And still your words cut like a dull blade through my veins
The memories of what you did hunts me in my dreams
I'm sick of the past holding me captive
You hurt me in ways you could never understand
You took away my ability to trust and to love
You robbed me of a real childhood or a chance at a healthy life
You scared me in a number of ways
I hate all of the paranoia
I dont hate you, tho I do despise you and all that you are
You hurt and ruined plenty of lives and never once looked back
I wish I could tell you how you make me feel
I want to tell you about the fear you made me live in
I sit and think of the things I would say to you if I ever got the chance
I want scream and yell, I want to make you understand
Part of me cries and pleads for your grip on me to leave
The other part is full of anger and rage
I'm ashamed that I never spoke up
I constantly practice all of the things I would get off of my chest
In my mind I have laid out many scenarios of what could happen
I want to hear you beg for my forgiveness but I don't think i can stomach seeing you again
So I sit and think of how you would react to hearing my emotions, but still..
Thats all in my head, those conversations never happened
After all of these years I still get no apologies, no sorries, no begging for forgiveness