i swear to god i didnt mean

to make you think that i was being 

100% with you or i 

i swear to god i dont want to die

i just dont want to feel this pain 

days of color drive the sane

but black and white sobriety 

might just be the death of me

and i know you feel me slipping through

this love we once called me and you

and i know it hurts when i look away 

lost by night, with you by day

but during hours of sunlight 

where being with you just feels so right

are limited; for night you see

]takes my mind inevadebly 

and i swear to god i hate myself

for setting my heart out on the shelf

and following it only to

be tripping with prespectives skewed

i claimed my mind was cleared when 

the sound echos and the mind spins 

and you thougt to maybe ask again

while chmicals run through my veins 

and all i could let myself say

is "sorry ive become this way"

i wish so much i could provide

more than scared up arms and weepy eyes

give you the love you so desire

a healthy strong eternal fire  

i swear to god i love you so

but understand i also know

to get too close, a risk too great,

i know who i am and i trust my fate

spare your heart and empty eyes