I found myself staring up at the wall
the wall of my emotions I remember being at her house
laying on her lap
I turn my head to look at her
and she blew my mind.
I didn’t expect it
but it came natural
A wave of emotions
flooded my thoughts
I was questioning everything
when it was over I was happy.
Not happy it was over with
but happy it happened
because in that moment with her
she opened my eyes to see
the world from a different
point of view.
So I began to see
what I see now, instead of
seeing it as a ‘regular’ person
I see it as I am supposed to
I see a world full of people
who care and understand me
I see people who are just like me
That kiss was magical
It changed my perspective
It all makes sense now.
She opened the doors to her world with one kiss and now I understand.
For a while I was fighting to
understand who I really was.
And I thought of kissing her, and thought it would just confuse things.
But at the time I didn't understand my own sexuality.
Thanks to her she helped me understand and I am not afraid to tell people.
All my friends know, but telling my parents would be difficult
knowing that my mom is very religious and she always says
that people who are 'like me' I thought, are sinful and will end up in hell…
But she doesn't understand, that this is who I am.
And nothing she can say or do will change that.