bloodletting
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in medieval times,
the doctor would make you bleed on purpose,
letting the wet air suck out your blood
like it alone was the poison that was chewing at your bones
he caught your body’s red vomit by the bucket
he let it hit the sky like a dagger
he knelt, tattered clothes dripping with your salty venom
and prayed he had at least saved one life
today the doctor is wearing
a white coat and whiter teeth
he can not afford to collect those crimson stains anymore
so he tells you the blood is good for you
he says the other doctors were wrong
he refuses to let your skin be slit
keep it all inside, he says, and if you catch the plague
take this yellow pill, and hope
it frightens the disease into a hiding place
somewhere within the grooves of your tired skin;
just pray it finds a way to escape
on its own
I still practice medieval medicine
my body is too small, and soft,
to hold everything it manufactures
my belly inflates, filling the cavity it occupies
my brain clatters against the fractured walls of my skull
my fingers grow pink and swollen
I choke
on my tongue
and the only way I can cleanse my aching limbs
is to use them
to create
I sit on spiked metal chairs and prick my fingers
I let myself evacuate my body
and dribble onto the pages of a glossy tile floor
acidic red marks leak onto white paper
in the form of written stanzas
that don’t even bother to rhyme
these are not words
bits of written language
defined by an arbitrary party
and learned on flashcards
these are drops of poison
that only stop existing
when I give them names
and attach them
to metaphor
I do not do this to please you
I do this to keep myself alive