BILLET-DOUX

 

I miss you so much,

It’s hard to accept

I wanna roll my heart out like a sleeve 

so you’ll see how it was supposed to fit

But I got mud on it from the bad weather

I became too shy and ashamed to show it

I caught cold from the bad weather 

and the freezing silence between us

 

I'm happy that you're happy

I'm happy that your dreams are finally coming true

I'm happy you're growing

Like a proud parent I'm happy to have watched you 

take your first step into this journey.

 

I'm happy for you...

 

Reminiscing on the days we laughed together 

and walked around like two accomplice(s)

The nights when we'd work together like two nocturnal creatures

The moments we shared together like time was meaningless

Then every second felt like a century

We were both mutual certainly.

 

I used to wanna see you happy

Then when I would give anything 

to see your dreams happen

I used to risk it all to make you smile

Even though it’d would eventually

stress you out

 

You used to wanna hear my voice

You used to want us to spend all the time together 

Moments that felt like eternity 

You used to wanna risk it all

You used to spend hours on call

 

Por favor, what happened?

I know we both grew up and reality set in

I know somehow one of the parties started vexing

One was always texting

The other busy with tasks and lessons

One was reinventing 

the other was disconnecting

 

I lost the signal

I guess the service was jammed

I remember lifting hands and praying hard

I cried for a couple weeks

I kinda lost my right hand

I guess one of us became engaged 

before the network interference kept us 

from ringing each other

 

I still kept  reaching out…

[static sounds]