There was once a time,

I sought for true love,

So young - innocent,

he stole that from me.

 

It started off well,

I was so happy,

Until one day,

"I'll teach  you how to be a good girl,"

 

he'd say:

"Watch how much you weight,

I say this to keep you healthy."

Eat, purge, eat purge

"You look filthy,

"Take five showers a day,

"You have to obey."

Scrub, rinse, scrub, rinse

"Watch what you wear,

"You're not allowed to do your hair."

Baggy, ugly, plain

"I'm your only friend,

"Do what I recommend,

"Don't you want to please me?"

Good girl, good girl

"You said hi to that guy today?

"How could you go so astray?

"Looks like you need to be punished."

He couldn't do it himself-

"Your cheek isn't red enough."

I had to slap myself,

Again, again, again

 

Yes, it was tough.

But I had to be a good girl.

 

In actuality,

I wanted to flee,

I wanted oh so badly to be free,

But I stayed.

 

Because I "loved" him,

And he "loved" me.

 

It feels just like yesterday,

I told him I wouldn't stay,

"What happened to my good girl?"

I didn't expect what he did to himself next,

Stab, stab, stab, stab, stab, stab

Blood was pouring down his chest,

I was trying my best,

 

Tears rolling down my face,

But through God's grace,

he is still alive,

And I was free.

 

Did I heal immediately?

No, my face was downcast,

I wore a mask,

To hide my pain,

I felt like I was insane,

I couldn't complete any task,

I wasn't good enough for anyone.

 

But soon I realized,

There's a greater Love,

A love that is unconditional,

A love that never ends.

 

Because He loves,

I left my cave and overcame,

Because He loves,

I can be brave,

Because He loves,

I forgave.

 

And now here I am,

I have found the right man,

For two happy years,

When I am with him I have no fears,

We love each other the way we are,

And I am the happiest girl, by far.