Ballerinas and shoe ties

Location

21237
United States
39° 20' 25.4184" N, 76° 29' 48.4512" W

after hearing words
reach the point where
sarcasm no longer hurts
but blends into my blood stream
as it sometimes does when i try my best
not to overdose
the cuts seems to bleed more frequently now
it dances around my veins
as bellerinas the night of the proformance
with aching feet and sore ankles
but still mange to twirl
and widen their face till their bodies fall weak
limp at the thought
finding myself on a white bed and IVs
hooked up to my body
momma sitting next to me bed crying
not being able to look her in the face i closed my eyes
and questioned the Gods why me
why couldnt i be like the children
the seem so delightful
they say ill be alright give a couple of stitches and morphine
and send me home
after checking to see if im suicidal
being the smart me
i laughed and said im fine
just wanted to see how it felt
but i obviously crossed too many lines
not finding it funny
i was discharged with looks of hatred coming from my mommas face
i loved once but i never loved me
and my thoughts came true
once i left my body
and the only way i would return is my blood started to dance
if my face began to smile
i guess it was the taunting
the teasing
youre so skinny
the pretty girls ignoring me
not knowing where it started was the truth
but what hurts more was instead of helping me
they teased me even more
her mother is this and her father is gone
her hair is black and feet are long
they said things that i fear to repeat
i dont know if it was because our skin was different
or because i was just advanced
but whether it was in school or over the net
the editing of my pictures and my
eating disorder becasue i started to look fat
the cuts seemed to earse the pain
if i seemed that i cut too deep
it was fine with me
while the blood exscaped so did the pain
i promise
im fine
it doesnt bother me

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Comments

savigirl14

Eating disorders and cutting are hard habits to quit. Being skinny is what a lot of girls want to be. But I bet whoever you are, that you're a goregous person inside and out. Ignore those cruel whispers and evil smiles. Let your true beauty shine through from your heart <3 Please read my poems and tell me what you think of them.

asantekivoi

thank you so much this means so much to me

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