The Audition Room

Sat, 02/06/2016 - 23:47 -- acibach

THE AUDITION ROOM

ALLY IBACH

 

I cannot count the number of times I have stood in a room being silently judged.

Sometimes silent is not even the word.

Judgment is loud, verbalized, and decides what is considered right or wrong.

I have spent all of my life being judged.

I voluntarily put myself through judgment.

It's not the stares that hurt you most, but its the fear of being judged.

Everything you do, every move you make...

is it right?

Every bold choice you made...

was that right?

Every time you played it safe to avoid judgment...

was that wrong?

The answer IS nothing is ever right or wrong.

It is perceived that way in judgment.

As teenagers, as people, we are told to avoid judgment by doing what is “supposedly” right

or what authoritative figures have taught us to believe is right.

These things we have been told by adults is nothing if not immature and adolescent.

If you are afraid of judgment, you can never truly be yourself,

and when you are doing something to please someone else

you are NOT pleasing yourself.

I have spent so much time in my life afraid of judgment,

when I voluntarily stand in front of it.

For a large quantity of my life, I have been in the audition room.

As a performer,

I prepare to be judged.

I map out every possible thing that could go wrong.

Every thing they might not like.

That THEY might not appreciate.

That they just would not understand.

But I was the one who needed to like, appreciate, and understand my decisions.

To face the audition room is to face a possible success or a complete failure.

To face the audition room is to face judgment.

To overcome the audition room is to know you are invincible.

To know that you make your own choices.

To know that you're not afraid of anyone's judgment, but your own.

Being successful is being yourself, without giving a damn if you are judged for it.

We all face judgment everyday.

Instead of facing judgment, overcoming it is equivalent to success.

When you face judgment, you are in your own audition room.

We all have our own audition rooms.

That group at school you're trying to get in with, to impress.

The guy or girl you are changing yourself for.

The group of fake people you might associate with for social status.

You are in YOUR audition room,

where you are the one choosing success or failure.

Choose success.

 

This poem is about: 
My community

Comments

acibach

This poem embodies my feelings of doing what I love (performing) with a proce (auditioning)

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