Anxiety
My constant fight
Is a battle with myself
I think most people fear
Something that could happen to them
What I fear
Some days is myself
I stand in front of the mirror
Frowning at the girl looking back at me
Wishing I were someone else
Sometimes just talking to people
Is a battle
The thoughts coming unbidden to my mind
I try to block it out but soft as a whisper it comes back
"They hate me"
I can't bother them
I don't want to be a burden
They'll probably laugh at me anyway
But I can't let this anxiety
This feeling in my chest
This feeling that I'm not good enough
That I'll never be good enough
Control me
I take a deep breath
And I talk to my friends
I smile at strangers
I keep on living
Just for one more day
And then another
And another
Sometimes it is a struggle just to live
But I will live
And every day
I face my fear
And I say
"You cannot beat me"
And at my darkest hour
My friends and family will help me through it
Because I will not give up
I will keep on living
And keep on being me
To show everyone else
It is possible
To fight your fear
And to win