Psalm 139:23-24 

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
Try me, and know my anxieties;
24 And see if there is any wicked way in me,
And lead me in the way everlasting.

 

All and any

 

Why do I find myself in places where ability seems to fail?

Why do I choose the limelight while darkness is my comfort?

Why surround me with people when aloneness is my jail

that I enjoy immensely ... and I seemingly can afford?

 

Why am I here before you ... surely out of place?

Why do I even try to fit in with the unwanted?

Why is the hidden call ... in this fallen race

resting on the “why’s” that turn out often slanted?

 

Is the search of recognition ... the failure of it all?

Is the want to be noticed ... the downfall of so many?

Are not lives written in the dust reflecting our fall?

Are not our selfish notices to the hurt of all and any?

 

Why should we circle overall ... to search for the fallen?

So we can still our appetite and then sit on the fence?

Licking our lips gracefully ... to prepare ourselves in calling

through the “preaching” of “a” word to ones considered dense.

 

Nothing will justify hypocrisy ... the “chosen” out of our control.

Downhill we go at full speed with no brakes to slow us down.

I know we tried theocracy ... and search Moses’ pole

That now is the Achilles heel ... in the lives, we call our own.

 

Jan Wienen