Oblivious to things that I may

        have never seen

Clueless to those that didn't 

  speak for multiple reasons

    Now as I approach this 

   New age and new season 

I become aware of the simple things that

    were obviously well hidden

I'm no longer a child No one has to tell me

"When to go to sleep", or "What I need to eat", or

even "What I need to take on as responsibilities".

As a kid growing up life was easy 

  Easy peasy, Lemon squeezey 

   No responsibilites, No cares given 

But as soon as you grow from being 10 to 12

    you begin to witness 

The heartache and pain become 

              so realistic

      Because this not the life

     you chose but were given 

But this is the cruel world that we live in;

     To witness multiple things that 

when you were younger you were totally oblivious

You never remember why you use to stay with 

      your grandparents all the time,

And only saw your mother at certain places 

        during certain times 

The words being used around 

     never used to affect you  

Now when you sit and listen its all things hurtful.

   Hurtful against your mother, your father, 

      grandmother, and grandfather, 

         and maybe even down to 

     younger and older brothers 

        It's not what people say 

           But how they say it 

   And on this particular day I was 

       beginning to feel ashamed.

Not of myself but of the people around me, so 

           I put my foot down 

     So I could become grounded

Birthdays, Celebrations, and even Holidays 

                   pass by 

 But one of the most important life events

You're supposed to be showered with gifts and gifts 

          Graduation passes by 

 And now it's time to narrow things down 

      I took innovative to take on

       my own responsibilities 

   and to make choices on my own  

It's very clear to see that it's the people closest to you  

    feeding into all  of your negativity  

       you have to look out for   

   To stop playing childish games 

  and really  get settled down now 

   Once again you fail to realize 

       That your time is up  

 Not with living your life but,

      Living as a child and

    turning into a grown up.