The first time she chose another side

she lost my trust 

she lost value 

she lost love

she lost the right to know me

This was the year I chose myself over others 

This was the year I realized having kids 

dont make the situation better 

I came to terms with the fact I couldn’t rely on her

I grew myself and the walls within me 

into a force to be reckoned with

I made a promise to be better than all those who came before me

And it is one I intend to keep until my dying breath