5'1'' 189 lbs (155 cm 85 kg)

11432

United States

40° 42' 55.6272" N, 73° 47' 30.876" W

I am five-foot-one and one hundred and eighty-nine pounds.

At least, that's what I was when I last checked.

My mother asks me if I’ve lost weight and tells me that I look thinner today,

as if telling me that I look thinner instantly solves all my problems.

I shrugged and said that I didn't think so because of all the cookies I devoured

last night during a Friends marathon.

I’m told on a regular basis that I look good - for a fat girl.

Last time I checked, adding a qualifier to a compliment isn’t a compliment.

No, I don't want to hear about this new diet that you saw on tv.

No, I am not unhealthy.

No, I don't want to lose any weight.

I looked into the mirror this morning at 6 am and I told myself

that I am beautiful.

I said it a million- no wait, a billion times,

and said it over and over again; I made sure that it was stuck in my head like that one song you heard on the radio the other day

and you wondered how you seemed to know all of the words even though you could have sworn that you've never heard it before.

I am five-foot-one and my weight does not define me

because I am a powerful human being and it's time that I start looking

into my mirror and loving who I am because this is my only body

and I deserve to treat myself with respect.

I am flawless and I do not hate my body.

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