Tue, 08/12/2014 - 03:55 -- Airraca


United States
33° 5' 16.3752" N, 96° 5' 20.7708" W
United States
33° 5' 16.3752" N, 96° 5' 20.7708" W
I hurt and I ache but they will never know,
I'm not the same as I was three years ago.
My old self is knocking, trying to escape--
Too bad it's not what they want, they can't appreciate it.
I flaunt, I front, I pretend to seem tough...
They will never know how rough it is to front.
I'm not as strong as they assume I can be,
I wish they'd come inside my mind so they can all see-- DAMN, I just want to be ME.
Not only am I trapped within my own flaws,
It seems that I'm in dying due to my own laws. 
Beauty, personality, weight, creativity-- all keep me bothered. 
I used aim for perfection but that vision has been slaughtered. 
I'm struggling within myself to accept and improve my mindset and now I see I can't go wrong;
But, it's hard when you can't break down because you have to be strong.
I want to go back to the way I used to know!
That happy, free, woman I was three long years ago....


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