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200 likes on an Instagram picture
I'm more brilliant than a chandelier fixture
Nothing you do or say could make me dimmer
Then again, I've always been bit of a fibber
This brain
I don't feel sane
These thoughts oh god I must refrain
All I feel is darkness, pain
This brain
It's not always mine
I swear to God I'm not always fine
They say I'm so outgoing
"I can't wait to see the places he's going"
All of my teachers say that I'm confident
Then why in the world do I feel just the opposite
I can do this myself
I'm not schizophrenic
A little depressed
Bipolar, I'm frantic
I want to be better
The drugs they'll kill my lowest lows
But what about my highest highs?
I can do it myself.
Fuck the drugs.
"The whole family's medicated. Why aren't you?"
Because that's not what I want to do
Mental illness is not real
You're melodramatic
Kid cut the reel
If that is true
Then tell me why
When I smile
I still want to die
Third grade, that's the first time I thought that
All because the kids were mean and said that I was fat
This is the battle I wage in my head
When I'm just trying to get out of bed
200 likes on a picture doesn't mean shit
When you're constantly having a mental fit
And insecurities have you stuck in a god damned lonely pit
But people don't see this side of me
They just see the person I try to be
No one chooses this
It's genetics
Glamorizing mental illness
It's pathetic
It's not some accessory
If you had it you'd truly see
What it feels like to be completely worthless
Even when everything in your life is totally worth it