U kiss me thinking it made me feel better but u just threw me even further into confusion asking why now!?
Why not back then when I wanted u to myself. U infuriated me and I wanted answers. I talk to u but ur not honest with me or yourself based on the biased opinions of others who just want to chain u down to the bottom of a pool of sorrow, tears, and self doubt. I told u I can't help u until u help yourself but I decide to answer u back with the same action u took against me.i now have the one thing that I always wanted in my life. A companion, A partner, someone who understands me.
But I was wrong cause u still leave me by my lonesome while u go play with ur other friends. U still say u love me but I don't know what that means, I'm lost because u know I'm not like that nigga who called u a hoe and left you there to cry. I comfort u knowing I'm just hurting myself and at this point idc. These 14 months have been tough for the both of us and we continue to walk with each other in mind. Its almost the 15 month and u are still indecisive, stubborn, and shy. I don't understand, just talk to me. I mean its been 1yr and 2 monthsbut u still don't trust me and Idk how long I can keep this up but Ik one thing. U always have that one special place buried deep in my chest that we never get sullied by the darkness in my heart, because I loved u.