Tyler Bradford

17 Years in the Life

I woke up not knowing who I was

As if I was reborn

But this rebirth wasn’t beautiful

There weren’t any happy tears

Only I feeling of ominous

But next day was hell on earth

The past year

Was time of mental loss

I was a lost and I wasn’t sure of myself

I followed others

It hurts to admit

But it happened

In the past year

I lost people

Who hasn’t?

At the moment it felt like

The world was just attacking me

But everyone has that day

That day was my everyday

In the past year

I prayed and I’ve questioned my religion

I’ve watched those get smothered

By the pure blessing of god

But will continue to have the daily coffee and talk

With Satan himself

And yet felt blessing-less

I felt the only blessing given

Was waking up the next day

But my next day was hell on earth

In the past year

I questioned my existence

Was I worthy enough?

If killed myself

Would I have missed out?

Missed out on a better life

But the next day was hell on earth