As your death day get closer 

My nightmares get worse

I’m glitching my Glock praying I don’t have to take nobody 

Like god why they keep trying me 

I’m far from going insane 

I’m trynna not to loose my brain 

Gotta pop em pills so I don’t pull my Glock or go insane 

Soon as they speak funny on me 

Man my plate already full 

Yall niggas already ate 

I been seen the snakes

Yall niggas not safe 

Dis not up for no debate 

I can’t let my brother death jus shake away 

Shit still don’t sit right with me 

Popping pills is all I know 

So don’t judge me if you didn’t see what I seen 

Or been where I been 

Since you died it became a nightmare I can’t shake 

I barley talk about you 

Scoot because I can’t believe it 

The pain your death cus 

Put my sister in a deep hole 

Our relationship at odds 

I became distant 

She became distant 

She became a single mother of four 

I must amid I lost her bro 

I know I promise you I’m have her & them kids forever 

But to be honest bro I didn’t even have me 

I was trynna be everything for everybody but failed me 

I blame everybody but me 

I got so caught up in my life 

Before I knew it she fully cut me off 

I couldn’t even blame her forreal 

Especially after all we been through since you past 

I pray that her cutting me off help her & yall beautiful babies 

Can’t shake this feeling that I’m the blame 

I was so focused on a man that not even by myside now 

It’s crazy how shit changed in year 

I feel like I’m not self 

Like I’m going insane keep repeating the same-thing

I wish I can go back to October 5 at 11:15 pm 

Shit fuck me up at 1:15 am when you got shot 

Last image I have of you 

Change my whole perspective on life