My mind can't keep calm, all the screaming and beating me, making my mind numb...dumb...less alive. Feeling a mixture of self loathe and happiness in my mind. Taking control of my common sense and free will. On my mind numbing painful altering feeling of feeling like you've lost control . Hearing voices you don't even know call out to you, losing all sense of sanity as the bring you to your knees and control you, your hate , anger, depression. I can't help feeling lost like the worlds emptiness is all around me consuming me, destroying me. My person, who am I ? Am I the voices that consumed me , am I nothing or everything ...am I sane or on the brink of utter insanity.