If Only That You Knew
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I guess I cant miss something
that’s never taken place
I try to hide my pain
but you can see it in my face
Every day I wake up
and hope that you’ll believe
and I pray night and day
that one day you’ll receive
My mind is still filled
with memories that we share
I hope that one day
I can express how much I care
I close my eyes and rewind
things that are now just a chapter in our past
and I’ve noticed whenever I’m with you
I never cease to have a blast
You never gave me false hopes;
I guess I put those in my own head
I guess I’m like an open book
because every part of me is read
It’s so hard to let go
of a love you still hold so near
But I’m not sure i can hold on too much longer
the pain is just too severe.
I try to convince myself
my feelings for you will let me go
Yet I still have feelings
that I should really just let her know
You’re already aware
of what you mean to me
but I can’t let you know about my pain
or what I want us to be
But how do you tell someone
that you love them more than words can express?
How do you tell them this
without seeming like you obsess?
You’re everything that’s good to me
you’re my motivation
You’re the hope that takes away
my fears and my frustration
You may not feel the same
I guess I’ll never know.
Yet I’ll come so close to telling you
the next time we say Hello
Then I’ll freeze again
pretend that I forgot
When I know deep down inside
you probably know that I did not
The pain nearly swallows me whole
thinking of letting go of your hand
I’m sorry it has to be this way
this is not what I had planned.
So I’ll continue to pray
and hope for the very best
that God’s plan is me for you
and that belief is just the test
Well I guess for now I’ll have to force
my heart to detach myself from you
But still I wonder what you’d say
If only that You knew.
